Last night was my first weigh in - I couldn't make the pop-in so it was also my first chance to check on the ketosis situation. I found peeing on a slip of cardboard absurdly difficult and when it came out a rosy pink I was concerned as I thought it would have to be pale pink to qualify. But apparently all was well. I suppose given that I'd stuck religiously to LL that I would have had to have hit ketosis but my body's pretty tricksy. Which brings me to the weight loss - 7.7lbs. Now I know this is half a stone and I know that on WW or similar it would take me 2 months to reach that - but, but, but... Well, I read enough blogs and minis postings to know that people seem to lose 9lbs - 1st. And so I was hoping for more. Especially since I have found this week very tough, both physically and psychologically (today on our snack table are mars, milky ways and haribo fizzy sweets mmmmmmmm). And the girl I sat next to lost 9lbs and she has less weight to lose than me - don't get me wrong, I was pleased for her just a little disappointed for me.
Of course, I won't let it discourage me fundamentally - I'm pressing on - but it makes it just a teensy bit harder (I'd soooo love a mars). And I know I mustn't get my hopes up about week 2 weigh in as the first week is the more dramatic (I can go to the pop in this week). But I posted on minis and got lots of support which helps.
B/f had rung and left a lovely message on my voicemail last night before the meeting, wishing me luck - that was very nice as he's always pretty flat out at work doing important stuff and to even remember that I had the meeting was very sweet. He can't believe I'm disappointed with 7.7lbs - and pointed out that I clearly hadn't lost a stone as it would show.
I know that the time will pass and I'll look back on this and it will seem insignificant. I want to enjoy our holiday in Turkey after 100 days is up, feeling happier about myself and less inhibited. That's my goal I suppose (she discovers with faint surprise). But the ones I was thinking of were:
1) Losing 4 st in Foundation (less sure about this after my distinctly unstellar loss this week)
2) Getting to 9st8lbs (smack bang in the middle of my BMI healthy range)
3) Wearing a size 14
4) Being able to wear - and, crucially, look nice in - a dress
Onwards and upwards! Or rather downwards I suppose!