I am being cautious as I say this – and maintaining full body contact with wood – but I’ve had a reasonably good week. By this I mean I’ve been really conscientious on starve days, diet days and weekend. I was disappointed to see the scales rise after the weekend when I’d been so good, but the total loss for the week is -3lbs, which for me is pretty damn stellar.
I may also have achieved this by dint of buttering Scales of Doom (SoD) up by cleaning it. Either that or the dust and talc on it weighed quite a bit.
Either way I’ll take it. I definitely improve my mood if I’m sticking to it. If I can skip a meal relatively painlessly I’m positively glowing with satisfaction. Not quite sure that’s great psychologically but at this point, I don’t think that matters too much.
Today is not one of those days of denial and satisfaction. It’s our monthly cake bake for charity, and although I’ve foregone both breakfast and lunch to compensate, I have had several small pieces. But I also threw away (surreptiously) two pieces where I’d had a bite or two and decided it wasn’t worth the calories. I am also having dinner with P tonight on a deal at Yauatcha (it’s one of those deal things). I love dim sum and I’m hoping it’s not too disastrous – it’s not burger and chips for instance! I have to be brave and weigh tomorrow even though I know it’s going to be up – and then focus on getting it back down. I don’t think there are any other trip hazards before next WI.
I haven’t been at this weight since the end of February. Which is simultaneously depressing and good. I stand a faint chance of meeting my goal of getting into the next stone bracket by the end of the month. You know, dear Reader, that I feel scared thinking that, let alone typing it: I’ve been here too often where even with a concerted effort I fail every single goal. I don’t want to set myself up for that stomach dropping fall if I don’t make it, but.... but.... I really want to get cracking on with this, I know I’d be happier. It’s an ambitious goal tbh – means losing 5-6lbs – but I’m hoping that over the next 3 weeks this might be possible. If it means polishing SoD, so be it.