I was feeling slightly pious that having been ill all week, I had managed to resist comfort eating. Then I bought my team some chocolate to apologise for not being about much - and ate an obscene amount of M&Ms. And now I feel ill - physically and pretty rotten emotionally too. I think I let my guard down and got complacent and wham! Chocolate hit me in the kisser. Literally.
And you know what's even crazier? Having made myself feel ill on chocolate, there's some crazy bit of my brain that thinks I can self-medicate my way out of this - WITH CHOCOLATE. Yes, there's a bit of me that thinks if I eat more chocolate I'll feel better.
At times like this I despair of myself. And I wonder why I'm doing this diet if I just chuck it all away so quickly.