Friday, 25 January 2008

Choc horror

I was feeling slightly pious that having been ill all week, I had managed to resist comfort eating. Then I bought my team some chocolate to apologise for not being about much - and ate an obscene amount of M&Ms. And now I feel ill - physically and pretty rotten emotionally too. I think I let my guard down and got complacent and wham! Chocolate hit me in the kisser. Literally.

And you know what's even crazier? Having made myself feel ill on chocolate, there's some crazy bit of my brain that thinks I can self-medicate my way out of this - WITH CHOCOLATE. Yes, there's a bit of me that thinks if I eat more chocolate I'll feel better.

At times like this I despair of myself. And I wonder why I'm doing this diet if I just chuck it all away so quickly.


Lesley said...

Hi Peridot - isn't it mad! I remember doing a post like that - how I'd resisted temptation and been really good then, when I felt better just ate something stupid for no reason. You are not alone (which doesn't help at all!).

Like the idea of being a diet tart....maybe that's why I can't decide what diet to do to geet this stone off? I'm thinking about WW but if I say to myself, "it doesn't matter if you don't like it, just do it for a couple of weeks and then switch", that might take the pressure off and help me actually start the thing!!

So - good luck and keep it up!

Lesley x

Mrs said...

Oh Peridot!

Been there, done that so know JUST what you are talking about. Now, 'fess up, was the chocolate for you or for them?!

The thing is, food is your everything - just as it is mine. The diet is irrelevant, in a way, it's how we react to it (food) that's the clincher.

I don't know the answer. Yet! But I am determined to find out.

Big kiss (sans chocolat!)

Mrs Lxxxxxxxxxxxxx