I am still getting the adverse effects of being on this diet - I'm not that bothered, it's a price I'm willing to pay, but I am soooo looking forward to being energised. I am cold, light headed and weary, with occasional leg cramps. But worse is the constipation! As someone who ate far too much fruit this is not something I have ever suffered with. And I wasn't bothered that I hadn't been to the loo for a week as I assumed there was nothing much to expel (trying to be delicate here!). But it came to a head on Saturday morning when I felt that I did want to go to the loo. After a very painful 45 mins I staggered out of the bathroom and collapsed on the bed (en suite so not far to wobble), feeling like I do when I'm sick - hot and cold, shivery and sweaty. B/f (who is wise in the way of these things) said my body had gone into shock. After about an hour I was well enough to have a shower but I felt washed out for the rest of the day. I confess that I did weigh myself though and I am anticipating some result at WI tonight! But what a price! I took a ducolax on Saturday night to try and sort myself out but my body violently objected and I went the other way. There must be a solution.... My LLC is a nurse so I will consult her whether there is a laxative for wimps that I can take.
Anyway, after sharing far too much.....!
I went to a pop in on Friday, set up because the scales had broken at the last proper WI. If you recall, LLC's bathroom scales said I'd lost 7lbs in the last 7 days (I liked these scales) but as I suspected, they were completely wrong! After an additional 4 days it was actually 5lbs - so 5 lbs in 11 days. I was glumly thinking that it would average as 3lbs for the last 2 weeks but my (ahem) bathroom activities at the weekend lead me to hope for maybe another 3lbs tonight. Yes, really.
Pack-wise - I can't face the vegetable any more and I didn't have any chocolate this week (I really don't like it as hot chocolate which I cannot understand) but the Thai which I was a little ambivalent about is actually nice-ish. It has bits in it! Not the lumps you understand, they are my own unintentional addition! I also bravely tried the raspberry as a crushed ice milkshake but half of it went down the sink. I'm trying strawberry this week (probably as mousse). And a fruit bar to make as biscuits. I tried the toffee bar and lemon bar as biscuits and whilst they're better than as bars I still don't like them.
I told LLC about my plans for my birthday and she warned me off the nectarine. With a heavy heart I think she's probably right (sugar in the form of fructose). I'll have some cold chicken for lunch and a small steak in the evening with chicory (she said I could have a green salad).
I had a stressful Saturday helping my mother look after my nieces. The 2 year old was okay but the baby (3 months) was a nightmare. Nothing we did would stop her crying and it drove me insane. Reinforces my determination never to have children though. Sunday I read the new Harry Potter. Then I started reading it again! I'm halfway through for the second time now. It's the best book yet and I'm so glad that J K Rowling is there as a role model for young girls - make yourself rich by your own talent and imagination, not by marrying a footballer or prancing about pretending you can sing.
Monday, 23 July 2007
Thursday, 19 July 2007
Day 23 - specialist info
Today has been enormously stressful at work. There is a solitary piece of strawberry rock on our snack table - I want it so badly it almost hurts. I know it's just a reaction to stress but that doesn't make it any easier. I picked up the jar and looked at it. Then I put it down but it's still playing on my mind.
So, not least to distract myself, I thought I'd report back on some very interesting information I got yesterday. I see a weight loss specialist (NHS). He is an adorable mad professor and we always have interesting chats and he's really frank and bullsh*t free. I hadn't seen him since I started LL but he knew all about it and said it's probably the best of those VLCDs. But he said his main concern was that he said it depressed the person's metabolism so that it became very easy to put all the weight back on once you finished the diet (he said it was proof that there is no god!). I told him about Management and he agreed that it would help but he said it would take 9 months for someone's metabolism to recover. I thought this was very interesting given that LL say that your metabolism only decreases in proportion to your reduced body mass. And I have to say I believe my specialist as he doesn't have anything to sell. I have a low metabolism anyway - the age old excuse used by so many is actually true of me (or as lovely Dr C said "Miss P, it's cards on the table, you may not want to hear this but you have been grossly disadvantaged by your genes and there's nothing you can do about it"). I said I'd have to make sure my portions were small (and, I was thinking, GI friendly) for at least the 9 months. I asked about drugs to raise my metabolic rate but there are none - or at least no safe ones that the NHS would prescribe. He said the only thing you can do to raise your metabolism is exercise. I said once I'm not paying for LL I might be able to afford a gym (he said he'd seen patients who had had spectacular success from using a personal trainer - but they were all men. I said that that simply showed that if there was a god, he was definitely male!). But actually I can't afford a gym whilst I'm on management so I'm fretting about this already. I have a way to go yet but this clearly will be an issue for me (I am SO not running).
After my non-WI WI on Monday they weighed me on a similar looking set of scales. From that, in a week and a bit, I've lost 1lb. I hope to god it's wrong as that would just be utterly choking. I'm going to have an official WI with LLC on Friday - but again, if it's not the same scales it still may not be precise. But it will be another baseline ready for forwards.
My specialist said that he'd be happy if I lost more slowly than the norm on LL (because of the effect on my metabolism). I told him I wanted it off as quickly as possible. I hope I'm going to be the happy one at my next appointment in January!
So, not least to distract myself, I thought I'd report back on some very interesting information I got yesterday. I see a weight loss specialist (NHS). He is an adorable mad professor and we always have interesting chats and he's really frank and bullsh*t free. I hadn't seen him since I started LL but he knew all about it and said it's probably the best of those VLCDs. But he said his main concern was that he said it depressed the person's metabolism so that it became very easy to put all the weight back on once you finished the diet (he said it was proof that there is no god!). I told him about Management and he agreed that it would help but he said it would take 9 months for someone's metabolism to recover. I thought this was very interesting given that LL say that your metabolism only decreases in proportion to your reduced body mass. And I have to say I believe my specialist as he doesn't have anything to sell. I have a low metabolism anyway - the age old excuse used by so many is actually true of me (or as lovely Dr C said "Miss P, it's cards on the table, you may not want to hear this but you have been grossly disadvantaged by your genes and there's nothing you can do about it"). I said I'd have to make sure my portions were small (and, I was thinking, GI friendly) for at least the 9 months. I asked about drugs to raise my metabolic rate but there are none - or at least no safe ones that the NHS would prescribe. He said the only thing you can do to raise your metabolism is exercise. I said once I'm not paying for LL I might be able to afford a gym (he said he'd seen patients who had had spectacular success from using a personal trainer - but they were all men. I said that that simply showed that if there was a god, he was definitely male!). But actually I can't afford a gym whilst I'm on management so I'm fretting about this already. I have a way to go yet but this clearly will be an issue for me (I am SO not running).
After my non-WI WI on Monday they weighed me on a similar looking set of scales. From that, in a week and a bit, I've lost 1lb. I hope to god it's wrong as that would just be utterly choking. I'm going to have an official WI with LLC on Friday - but again, if it's not the same scales it still may not be precise. But it will be another baseline ready for forwards.
My specialist said that he'd be happy if I lost more slowly than the norm on LL (because of the effect on my metabolism). I told him I wanted it off as quickly as possible. I hope I'm going to be the happy one at my next appointment in January!
Tuesday, 17 July 2007
Day 22 - and the titles are back, hurrah!
Forgive me viewers, it's been a week since my last confession. Er, I mean blog.
And it CAN'T be put down to time flying whilst I'm having fun!
I'm still feeling very fatigued but the headaches have eased a bit which is a real relief. I was taking one or two of my very strong prescription migraine drugs a day and it still wasn't getting rid of the headaches. Drying my hair is still a struggle though!
WI last night was a real damp squib - the scales were broken. They brought in a pair of ordinary bathroom scales but they showed that I lost a fraction under 8lbs - which sadly I'm pretty confident isn't true for several reasons: 1) on my scales at home it showed more like 1-2lbs (although my scales are bizarrely random and this would be a bitter disappointment) 2) I've not lost that much even in week 1 and 3) another girl lost 6lbs on them and she had only had small losses to date too - and had had pizza (although if you can lose 6lbs a week on pizza sign me up!). I'm not sure if the scales are being repaired or replaced but I do feel that you need to have the same scales all the time to really see what's going on. But if I have only lost 1-2lbs I will be devastated. I don't find this diet easy and therefore I want a decent pay off for it!
I also developed an aversion to the vegetable soup - I can literally feel my gorge rising, which is quite interesting as I've never known what a gorge was. I still don't know but I can certainly feel it hurtling up towards my mouth! I have to say I'm finding most of the packs difficult to get down (I suspect chocolate will be joining vegetable as intolerable) but I'm determined not to give in to my thoughts ("Maybe I could just do it on Bouillon and/or miso soup and stop the soup packs entirely"). I have decided however that on my birthday at the end of August I'm not going to make myself miserable on packs. I've read that you stay in ketosis if you have less than 50g carbohydrates so I thought I'd have a shake for breakfast, some ham for lunch and 2 chicken drumsticks and - bliss - a white nectarine in the evening. I think that sounds sensible. Of course it's the pschological damage it might do with wanting food. But I do anyway! B/f is very wary - he says if I break the diet after that I will have to re-pay him all the money he's contributed to my weekly fees. Fair enough I suppose. I have no intention of not sticking to the 100 days though - not least because we've booked the flights now for the first bit of our holiday in Turkey in October. What do you think about the birthday feast? Am I being sensible (in terms of indulgence) or delusional?
I had a horrid 'fat' experience last week. I was meeting b/f in the park and was early - and by some bizarre quirk of fate it wasn't raining. So I sat on a bench with my book. A middle aged woman came and sat on the other end of the bench. She was, I'm afraid, very badly dressed (opaque American tights with open toed ugly sandals for instance) and rather overweight - but not grossly so. Some young Meditteranean tourist boy came and sat in the middle and there was much laughing as his friend took a photo. I don't think I was being oversensitive that the intention was to show how unattractive British women were - a big joke. It really stung and I wished I'd got up and walked away. But you always think of these things AFTER the event.
On the plus side, one of my denim skirts is now too big to wear and my usual t-shirts look overly baggy and swamping (and therefore not flattering). The thing is that I find it quite hard to believe as - depending on the scales situation - I may not have even lost a stone yet (if my scales are right. SURELY I must have lost at least a stone in the first 3 weeks. Pleeeease.). And as I want to lose quite alot of weight (5 1/2 - 6 stone) that's not a significant proportion. But I am cautiously pleased. Fingers crossed for those new manual scales to be right all along - you would see the rare sight (on this diet) of me actually being very happy!
And it CAN'T be put down to time flying whilst I'm having fun!
I'm still feeling very fatigued but the headaches have eased a bit which is a real relief. I was taking one or two of my very strong prescription migraine drugs a day and it still wasn't getting rid of the headaches. Drying my hair is still a struggle though!
WI last night was a real damp squib - the scales were broken. They brought in a pair of ordinary bathroom scales but they showed that I lost a fraction under 8lbs - which sadly I'm pretty confident isn't true for several reasons: 1) on my scales at home it showed more like 1-2lbs (although my scales are bizarrely random and this would be a bitter disappointment) 2) I've not lost that much even in week 1 and 3) another girl lost 6lbs on them and she had only had small losses to date too - and had had pizza (although if you can lose 6lbs a week on pizza sign me up!). I'm not sure if the scales are being repaired or replaced but I do feel that you need to have the same scales all the time to really see what's going on. But if I have only lost 1-2lbs I will be devastated. I don't find this diet easy and therefore I want a decent pay off for it!
I also developed an aversion to the vegetable soup - I can literally feel my gorge rising, which is quite interesting as I've never known what a gorge was. I still don't know but I can certainly feel it hurtling up towards my mouth! I have to say I'm finding most of the packs difficult to get down (I suspect chocolate will be joining vegetable as intolerable) but I'm determined not to give in to my thoughts ("Maybe I could just do it on Bouillon and/or miso soup and stop the soup packs entirely"). I have decided however that on my birthday at the end of August I'm not going to make myself miserable on packs. I've read that you stay in ketosis if you have less than 50g carbohydrates so I thought I'd have a shake for breakfast, some ham for lunch and 2 chicken drumsticks and - bliss - a white nectarine in the evening. I think that sounds sensible. Of course it's the pschological damage it might do with wanting food. But I do anyway! B/f is very wary - he says if I break the diet after that I will have to re-pay him all the money he's contributed to my weekly fees. Fair enough I suppose. I have no intention of not sticking to the 100 days though - not least because we've booked the flights now for the first bit of our holiday in Turkey in October. What do you think about the birthday feast? Am I being sensible (in terms of indulgence) or delusional?
I had a horrid 'fat' experience last week. I was meeting b/f in the park and was early - and by some bizarre quirk of fate it wasn't raining. So I sat on a bench with my book. A middle aged woman came and sat on the other end of the bench. She was, I'm afraid, very badly dressed (opaque American tights with open toed ugly sandals for instance) and rather overweight - but not grossly so. Some young Meditteranean tourist boy came and sat in the middle and there was much laughing as his friend took a photo. I don't think I was being oversensitive that the intention was to show how unattractive British women were - a big joke. It really stung and I wished I'd got up and walked away. But you always think of these things AFTER the event.
On the plus side, one of my denim skirts is now too big to wear and my usual t-shirts look overly baggy and swamping (and therefore not flattering). The thing is that I find it quite hard to believe as - depending on the scales situation - I may not have even lost a stone yet (if my scales are right. SURELY I must have lost at least a stone in the first 3 weeks. Pleeeease.). And as I want to lose quite alot of weight (5 1/2 - 6 stone) that's not a significant proportion. But I am cautiously pleased. Fingers crossed for those new manual scales to be right all along - you would see the rare sight (on this diet) of me actually being very happy!
Tuesday, 10 July 2007
Day 15 and STILL no title options!
Well, I've not so much as fallen off the wagon as got dragged along behind it for a bit. I ate a chestnut from b/f's stew last night. The GUILT is overwhelming! I just grabbed it and ate it so fast I didn't really taste it or enjoy it (or even chew it properly!). I've looked up how many calories in a chestnut - 24 - and I just hope it won't make much of a difference.
I think I did it as I'd had my WI and only lost 1lb since the pop in on Friday - taking my total for the week to a very unimpressive 4lbs. And that was week 2 so it's going to slow down yet further - argh! My goal of losing 4st in Foundation looks increasingly unlikely. I had hoped that the walk on Sunday would bump it up a bit (and secretly and not at all healthily, the two occasions where I only had 3 of the 4 packs). Our LLC told us last night that the 3st is not a guarantee (I'm sure I saw somewhere that it was) but an average - so there are people who don't lose 3st. I'm very worried that will be me.
I'm still going to stick with Foundation and I suppose I'll have to see where I am at the end but given the pain (admittedly mostly psychological) this diet causes me I want a decent return for all my effort.
I think that LL is still getting harder for me. I am having dreadful headaches and today my arms were so tired I could barely hold my hairdryer up. I had noticed with pleasure (and possibly a fair amount of smugness) that I hadn't felt tired in the first week - but I think it's getting me now. LLC said you can get the side effects in week 2 or even 3. Serves me right! But hopefully once this is behind me I might get that energy rush - or at least feel brighter.
I tried the CD mixamousse last night, as mentioned on minimins. I put it in a banana shake in the hope it would miraculously transform into banana angel delight. Not wholly surprisingly it didn't. It wasn't even as good as a banana shake with loads of mushed up ice. So my £12 on ebay was a false economy (and irritatingly I found out that it's £3 from CD so I was well and truly ripped off - ah well.) I didn't eat it all but I must not keep missing packs. The LLC said if we miss a pack we should have 5 the following day! There is no way I could or would do that. So I must try and stick to 4 (all day walks and shopping trips aside!)
Well, I've not so much as fallen off the wagon as got dragged along behind it for a bit. I ate a chestnut from b/f's stew last night. The GUILT is overwhelming! I just grabbed it and ate it so fast I didn't really taste it or enjoy it (or even chew it properly!). I've looked up how many calories in a chestnut - 24 - and I just hope it won't make much of a difference.
I think I did it as I'd had my WI and only lost 1lb since the pop in on Friday - taking my total for the week to a very unimpressive 4lbs. And that was week 2 so it's going to slow down yet further - argh! My goal of losing 4st in Foundation looks increasingly unlikely. I had hoped that the walk on Sunday would bump it up a bit (and secretly and not at all healthily, the two occasions where I only had 3 of the 4 packs). Our LLC told us last night that the 3st is not a guarantee (I'm sure I saw somewhere that it was) but an average - so there are people who don't lose 3st. I'm very worried that will be me.
I'm still going to stick with Foundation and I suppose I'll have to see where I am at the end but given the pain (admittedly mostly psychological) this diet causes me I want a decent return for all my effort.
I think that LL is still getting harder for me. I am having dreadful headaches and today my arms were so tired I could barely hold my hairdryer up. I had noticed with pleasure (and possibly a fair amount of smugness) that I hadn't felt tired in the first week - but I think it's getting me now. LLC said you can get the side effects in week 2 or even 3. Serves me right! But hopefully once this is behind me I might get that energy rush - or at least feel brighter.
I tried the CD mixamousse last night, as mentioned on minimins. I put it in a banana shake in the hope it would miraculously transform into banana angel delight. Not wholly surprisingly it didn't. It wasn't even as good as a banana shake with loads of mushed up ice. So my £12 on ebay was a false economy (and irritatingly I found out that it's £3 from CD so I was well and truly ripped off - ah well.) I didn't eat it all but I must not keep missing packs. The LLC said if we miss a pack we should have 5 the following day! There is no way I could or would do that. So I must try and stick to 4 (all day walks and shopping trips aside!)
Monday, 9 July 2007
It won't let me put a title - but Day 14!
Well, such a lot has happened since I last wrote. Actually that's a lie! My life is pretty empty these days as my social life revolved around food.
But. I had my pop-in on Friday and had lost 3lbs - so I am plodding slowly away. One of these days I'll have a WI that will make me ecstatic! Maybe. It was nice to see the others - one poor girl had only lost 1lb and it was her first week! I hope she'll see a significant change tonight.
The weekend wasn't too hard, sometimes I did feel hard done by but these feelings passed. I have to say I am still craving food. I literally have to keep such a tight grip on myself not to eat all the time. I so nearly stole a chestnut out of b/f's stew! I doubt it would affect ketosis but I think it would make it perilously easy to have more - and more and more.
I am also having stinky headaches - something I tend to suffer from anyway but they are definitely worse. But I know that I have to just go through this and hopefully they may even disappear as I lose weight.
We did a walk on Sunday - it was only 5.5miles on flat ground but I felt shattered. I definitely notice the difference on the restricted calories and really trudged round feeling like a had a big weight on my chest. I'm glad I did it though - it was almost 2 days of packs in calories! I took along a nut bar for the first time. BLEURGH! It was so foul I had to spit my mouthful out - how can anything purporting to be edible be that vile? I imagine even my mother's greedy labrador would reject it!
I'm not getting on with bars generally - I had the toffee (bearable) and the lemon (horrid - and such a disappointment as I usually love anything lemon). In one way this isn't so bad - I know they're slightly more calorific than the packs - but they are useful for when you're on the go. So I ended up only having 3 packs again yesterday. I can see how tempting it is to skip a pack every now and again and hope that it makes a difference on the scales but I'm sure this is a bad idea. Just can't work out how!
I am amazed that I've been doing this a fortnight - can't quite believe I've managed to hang on all that time. I'm pleased with myself that I've stuck to something I find so tough and I am optimistic that it will get better - quite soon. Just keep thinking about that holiday - spending a diproportionate amount of time thinking about the food actually! But Turkish food is pretty healthy and I'm determined to be sensible - plain chargrilled chicken/fish and salads and hummous and babaganoush and the like of course but no desserts and little if any booze. Roll on October!
Well, such a lot has happened since I last wrote. Actually that's a lie! My life is pretty empty these days as my social life revolved around food.
But. I had my pop-in on Friday and had lost 3lbs - so I am plodding slowly away. One of these days I'll have a WI that will make me ecstatic! Maybe. It was nice to see the others - one poor girl had only lost 1lb and it was her first week! I hope she'll see a significant change tonight.
The weekend wasn't too hard, sometimes I did feel hard done by but these feelings passed. I have to say I am still craving food. I literally have to keep such a tight grip on myself not to eat all the time. I so nearly stole a chestnut out of b/f's stew! I doubt it would affect ketosis but I think it would make it perilously easy to have more - and more and more.
I am also having stinky headaches - something I tend to suffer from anyway but they are definitely worse. But I know that I have to just go through this and hopefully they may even disappear as I lose weight.
We did a walk on Sunday - it was only 5.5miles on flat ground but I felt shattered. I definitely notice the difference on the restricted calories and really trudged round feeling like a had a big weight on my chest. I'm glad I did it though - it was almost 2 days of packs in calories! I took along a nut bar for the first time. BLEURGH! It was so foul I had to spit my mouthful out - how can anything purporting to be edible be that vile? I imagine even my mother's greedy labrador would reject it!
I'm not getting on with bars generally - I had the toffee (bearable) and the lemon (horrid - and such a disappointment as I usually love anything lemon). In one way this isn't so bad - I know they're slightly more calorific than the packs - but they are useful for when you're on the go. So I ended up only having 3 packs again yesterday. I can see how tempting it is to skip a pack every now and again and hope that it makes a difference on the scales but I'm sure this is a bad idea. Just can't work out how!
I am amazed that I've been doing this a fortnight - can't quite believe I've managed to hang on all that time. I'm pleased with myself that I've stuck to something I find so tough and I am optimistic that it will get better - quite soon. Just keep thinking about that holiday - spending a diproportionate amount of time thinking about the food actually! But Turkish food is pretty healthy and I'm determined to be sensible - plain chargrilled chicken/fish and salads and hummous and babaganoush and the like of course but no desserts and little if any booze. Roll on October!
Thursday, 5 July 2007
Day 10 - double figures whoo hoo
I had yesterday off work and felt quite cheerful for the first time since I started LL. I went shopping and bought some new shoes (was planning on ballet pumps but just bought the How to Look Good Naked book and Gok was so severe about this that I bought pointy orange slingbacks with a small heel) and a new skirt. I have this skirt already and love it and since it was very reduced I bought it 2 sizes smaller since I'd have my existing one taken in - and for £20 it would probably be the same price to have my existing one taken in in x weeks anyway. This was very optimisitic of me as I still can't quite let myself believe that this diet will work for me.
I messed my packs up rather though. I had coffee and vanilla for breakfast but didn't want a soup before I went out 2 hours later. And I was meeting a friend for coffee in the evening so didn't get back until 8.30pm - when I really couldn't have had 3 packs before bed. So, in summary, I skipped one. I know, I know, this is not good practice. And I made it worse by cooking one of the remaining 3 - I had a chocolate muffin (yuck) - so had half the nutrients I should have done. But! A week ago I definitely couldn't have gone from 11am to 8.45pm without anything so that's good. And shows that although I still battle with hunger it IS getting better - just in small steps. I had taken a bar (reserved really for a weekend 'treat' - although the other people in my group say they're not nice at all) for emergencies but didn't want to eat it in public. I think what I've learnt is to plan ahead more carefully when selecting my packs for the week. And if I'm shopping all day (admittedly a rare occurence) cut a bar up and put it in a plastic bag to dip into anonymously.
I was intrigued to read about Courtney Love's weight loss in Grazia this week. 3 stone in 4 months or similar - pah! I thought, I know many a mini who's trounced that! Does sound similar though as she has meal replacement packs for breakfast and lunch.
Pop in session tomorrow night. I'm working tonight so won't be in work tomorrow - next posting will be on Monday (before that evening's next weigh in, gulp).
I messed my packs up rather though. I had coffee and vanilla for breakfast but didn't want a soup before I went out 2 hours later. And I was meeting a friend for coffee in the evening so didn't get back until 8.30pm - when I really couldn't have had 3 packs before bed. So, in summary, I skipped one. I know, I know, this is not good practice. And I made it worse by cooking one of the remaining 3 - I had a chocolate muffin (yuck) - so had half the nutrients I should have done. But! A week ago I definitely couldn't have gone from 11am to 8.45pm without anything so that's good. And shows that although I still battle with hunger it IS getting better - just in small steps. I had taken a bar (reserved really for a weekend 'treat' - although the other people in my group say they're not nice at all) for emergencies but didn't want to eat it in public. I think what I've learnt is to plan ahead more carefully when selecting my packs for the week. And if I'm shopping all day (admittedly a rare occurence) cut a bar up and put it in a plastic bag to dip into anonymously.
I was intrigued to read about Courtney Love's weight loss in Grazia this week. 3 stone in 4 months or similar - pah! I thought, I know many a mini who's trounced that! Does sound similar though as she has meal replacement packs for breakfast and lunch.
Pop in session tomorrow night. I'm working tonight so won't be in work tomorrow - next posting will be on Monday (before that evening's next weigh in, gulp).
Tuesday, 3 July 2007
Week 1 - tick
Last night was my first weigh in - I couldn't make the pop-in so it was also my first chance to check on the ketosis situation. I found peeing on a slip of cardboard absurdly difficult and when it came out a rosy pink I was concerned as I thought it would have to be pale pink to qualify. But apparently all was well. I suppose given that I'd stuck religiously to LL that I would have had to have hit ketosis but my body's pretty tricksy. Which brings me to the weight loss - 7.7lbs. Now I know this is half a stone and I know that on WW or similar it would take me 2 months to reach that - but, but, but... Well, I read enough blogs and minis postings to know that people seem to lose 9lbs - 1st. And so I was hoping for more. Especially since I have found this week very tough, both physically and psychologically (today on our snack table are mars, milky ways and haribo fizzy sweets mmmmmmmm). And the girl I sat next to lost 9lbs and she has less weight to lose than me - don't get me wrong, I was pleased for her just a little disappointed for me.
Of course, I won't let it discourage me fundamentally - I'm pressing on - but it makes it just a teensy bit harder (I'd soooo love a mars). And I know I mustn't get my hopes up about week 2 weigh in as the first week is the more dramatic (I can go to the pop in this week). But I posted on minis and got lots of support which helps.
B/f had rung and left a lovely message on my voicemail last night before the meeting, wishing me luck - that was very nice as he's always pretty flat out at work doing important stuff and to even remember that I had the meeting was very sweet. He can't believe I'm disappointed with 7.7lbs - and pointed out that I clearly hadn't lost a stone as it would show.
I know that the time will pass and I'll look back on this and it will seem insignificant. I want to enjoy our holiday in Turkey after 100 days is up, feeling happier about myself and less inhibited. That's my goal I suppose (she discovers with faint surprise). But the ones I was thinking of were:
1) Losing 4 st in Foundation (less sure about this after my distinctly unstellar loss this week)
2) Getting to 9st8lbs (smack bang in the middle of my BMI healthy range)
3) Wearing a size 14
4) Being able to wear - and, crucially, look nice in - a dress
Onwards and upwards! Or rather downwards I suppose!
Of course, I won't let it discourage me fundamentally - I'm pressing on - but it makes it just a teensy bit harder (I'd soooo love a mars). And I know I mustn't get my hopes up about week 2 weigh in as the first week is the more dramatic (I can go to the pop in this week). But I posted on minis and got lots of support which helps.
B/f had rung and left a lovely message on my voicemail last night before the meeting, wishing me luck - that was very nice as he's always pretty flat out at work doing important stuff and to even remember that I had the meeting was very sweet. He can't believe I'm disappointed with 7.7lbs - and pointed out that I clearly hadn't lost a stone as it would show.
I know that the time will pass and I'll look back on this and it will seem insignificant. I want to enjoy our holiday in Turkey after 100 days is up, feeling happier about myself and less inhibited. That's my goal I suppose (she discovers with faint surprise). But the ones I was thinking of were:
1) Losing 4 st in Foundation (less sure about this after my distinctly unstellar loss this week)
2) Getting to 9st8lbs (smack bang in the middle of my BMI healthy range)
3) Wearing a size 14
4) Being able to wear - and, crucially, look nice in - a dress
Onwards and upwards! Or rather downwards I suppose!
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