I hate my body. And it hates me. I have put on 4lbs (so far) this week. 4lbs. This is my daily diet at the moment:
Breakfast – nothing (although today I had a coffee)
Lunch – a large glass of V8
Dinner – half a carton of soup and an ice lolly
I worked out I’m having 500-600 calories a day. And I’m putting on roughly ¾ lb every day. How can that even be possible?
I’m back at work now. I feel fine until late afternoon, when I start feeling nauseous – at least I have done today on my first day back. I can’t be ill any longer or until next summer – I’ve already triggered a warning. And any medical appointment counts towards the tally of four days a year until it’s a disciplinary matter. Fortunately I’m allowed to use my flexi time to go to appointments, because I’ll need to go once a month for fills to the band (I haven’t told people what my op was – in fact, most just know I was off sick). This is why I haven’t been to the dentist for 8 years. Even taking flexi for medical appointments is frowned upon. I am not feeling very motivated or very valued at the moment!
5 comments:
Presume that some of the drop after the op was water - hence the gain now. You have to keep hydrated anyway (for your health), so no point getting despondent about that!
At least you’re feeling a bit better. Things are bound to be a bit unsettled at first, but the downwards trajectory will be back soon. Courage!
Sx
I know you’re right - but I still feel annoyed about it!
Yes, courage. I am gritting my teeth. And moaning!
It will level out and then start going downwards - stay strong, it'll happen. I'm glad to hear you're back in the land of the disgruntled well again. Lxx
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