Oh dear. Work is really tough at the moment: there is just too much to do and I feel constantly on the brink of screaming panic. The only thing that stops me is that I'm far too tired for that burst of energy. It's just relentless: one of my junior colleagues on a parallel team has been signed off with stress and is in a bad way and I feel so sorry for him. The only glimmer of a silver lining is that I have a new boss who seems very nice and is certainly pitching in (my old boss didn't believe in actually doing any work, seeing his role as one of unconstructive criticism - he's temporarily promoted so the criticism is more fairly shared about now).
I don't seem to have the mental energy to diet at the moment. I'm not eating like a crazy woman which is good but I must - I MUST - do better. Last week was pretty exemplary, this week was not. My starve days didn't really happen - more tetchily hungry, picking-rather-than-eating days.
The thing is that work is only going to get more busy for the next month. So I have to find some way to deal with that that allows me to diet too. I can't think what that might be and I am SO TIRED that my mind is foggy. Maybe the weekend will help me formulate a plan. But all ideas most, most welcome.
I'm still struggling with the January blues too. They're so intensely navy that I sometimes wonder if it's a bit more than that. I guess I'll wait until Spring and find out. We're over halfway through January so that's good news.
I am - after your encouragement - doing a photo challenge called 100 happy days. Its premise is that you take a photo of something that has made you happy that day and put it on your choice of social media site. I think I've been doing it for about a week and it will tell me when I have completed it. It makes me look for optimism every day and even when it's a bit feeble (the colour contrast of my halved kiwi on a cobalt blue plate was today's), I think and hope that it reinforces the message that there is at least a flicker of happiness every day. Far too many of mine are of food or drink, sigh (NB Just checked - 4 out of 10 are of food or drink so not so bad!). If you fancy having a go, do google it. I'm doing it on Instagram and I am enjoying seeing other people's photos.
And tomorrow's photo is likely to be of a cocktail.