Wednesday, 6 November 2013

Looking for the light

The bad patch continues.  That means that the good stuff is just round the corner, right?
I have sinusitis.  The GP sees no reason to do anything about this as “it will go in a few weeks”.  This is after 12 days of headache.  The pharmacist snorted when I told her and said “By a few weeks, does he mean summer?”.  I really hope not.  I actually think my GP is incentivised on what he doesn’t prescribe; I am all for antibiotics not being over-prescribed but I only go there about every 4 years – and when I go, I really need help as I hate going.  Weirdly, I never do get that help.  I'm simply not going to bother with them any more, they just take up time and energy for nothing.
Although the doctors are not remotely interested in the reason I went to see them, they are keen on testing me for diabetes and heart problems, both of which they seem to have convinced themselves I have.  I assume again this is due to an initiative from the Department of Health.  They took a little blood there which showed ‘borderline’ blood sugar – and now I have to do a 12 hour fast, followed by a blood test, followed by Lucozade, followed by another blood test.  Now doesn’t that sound fun.  Also my cholesterol levels were slightly up – I am of the firm opinion that cholesterol is governed almost entirely by stress which, as I said, a) I was and b) I was even more because of having to be at the surgery.  But because I also finally got round to mentioning my extremely cold feet, they’re now convinced that my arteries are furred and my heart is in danger.  How very cheerful. 
You know where all this will end up, don’t you?  With the sage advice that I should try and lose weight, I imagine, and the instant ensuing sky-rocketing of my blood pressure as I explain forcefully that THAT’S WHAT I’VE BEEN TRYING TO DO FOR YEARS THANKS VERY MUCH.
I’m still miserable about the lost job.  Intellectually I know this is ridiculous but emotionally I can’t seem to buck up.  I was going to start my three positive things that happen each day list again but I genuinely cannot come up with three for yesterday – it was just an awful, awful day.
I’m looking forward to a slightly longer weekend this week though – we’ve taken an extra day off so we don’t have to spend our wedding anniversary in a car.  We can’t afford to actually do anything other than take a bit of extra time and probably pop a bottle or two but that will be nice.  I had originally wanted to stay in another Hotel du Vin as we stayed in one for our wedding night and another for the first two days of our minimoon but had to scale down to dinner out and then down further to dinner in!  I think a wedding anniversary in November may always be fraught with financial peril somehow!  But we will enjoy it nonetheless.


Seren said...

You poor thing. I hear such horror stories about horrible doctors but there are good ones out there who aren't intent on making every appointment weight related. Perhaps time to seek another practice?? But hope all tests pass without incident.

And have a wonderful, happy, lovely anniversary with lots of bubbles.


Lesley said...

Aah sugar (well, maybe not sugar given the topic of your post, how about, sweets?). Sorry you're having a grim time. Hope your anniversary-on-a-shoestring is soothing. Many hugs. L xx

Linz M said...

Sorry to hear you're having a rubbish time, doctors are most annoying at the best of times. I've spent months on inhalers for my chest because they wouldn't give me antibiotics. I cut my finger, got antibiotics and miraculously my chest is clear!

I was off on a tangent there, sorry! Have a lovely anniversary xx

Beaker said...

I swear I went to the doctors with a horrific case of mouth ulcers once and I was told it was because I was fat... you may be fat, but even if you lose weight you will still be fat until you are not, so they still need to treat you!

Love Cat said...

Hope the anniversary was lovely at least.

Much love x