It’s getting a bit difficult to keep the faith and not implode in a sticky mess of sugar, tears and despair. It’s the 4th week where I’ve stayed the same. I would add that I have been within points – I have used some of my flexi points but rarely use all of them. I never dip into exercise points (not that there were many this week when I haven’t cycled).
• 4lbs heavier than before Christmas
• 12lbs heavier than when I finished Lighter Life
• 1st 2lbs (roughly) heavier than my lightest weight (in memory)
• About 4st heavier than my goal weight
Oh yeah, and
• Fed up
Moving along very slowly is frustrating enough, but this is a total stalling and it sucks big time. I’m trying to keep a stiff upper lip but it’s starting to wobble a bit. And it’s making me feel a bit sloppy about counting – I know this doesn’t make sense logically but it makes me feel very half-hearted about the whole thing – why bother if continually resisting doesn’t get me anywhere? It’s okay, that’s a rhetorical question.
It’s as if I’m doing my bit but not being met half way by SoD (or, er, at all!) and it saps my energy for keeping it up. And dieting does require quite a bit of mental energy I think. Shame really that mental energy doesn’t burn calories.
Sooo, this weekend: I am meeting a long-lost friend tonight (please see losing motivation – I feel like drinking (which I rarely allow myself to do because of the calories) and going somewhere indulgent for dinner, sigh), nothing tomorrow and to see the potential wedding venue at the crack of dawn on Sunday.
I thought we’d sorted the wedding venue but the contract threw up a host of problems and they’ve not been terribly helpful in sorting things out (including one email that made me so angry I had to go and breathe. For about 4 hours. And then bf vetoed my response! It was probably just as well). I have at least come to the conclusion that the woman I’ve been dealing with is a bit incompetent and socially inept rather than actually deliberately obtuse and rude. Fortunately the caterers run the actual day and they seem very efficient and simpatico.
And last - but not least - thanks all for your lovely comments about my Grandma.