Well, it's been a crazy couple of weeks. I cannot recommend ending a job, starting a new one and sitting an exam all in the space of a week. But that, dear Reader, is what I did.
I am not sorry to say goodbye to the old job. I loved the subject matter but the department I worked in was - as I said in my exit interview - a blame culture that de-skilled, demotivated and disempowered anyone unfortunate enough to find themselves there. I did not make the traditional tearful speech saying how much I'd miss the place. I'll miss the subject matter and some of my colleagues but in all truthfulness, I felt utter glee at having escaped.
The people seem very nice in the new job. It's a bit quiet for me but I'm dying to get my teeth stuck in to some of the bigger projects and that should happen soon. In the meantime I'm trying not to boss my less experienced colleague about but to inject a bit of dynamism and proactivity. AND they have clean loos, windows and bins - an enormous improvement on the old place.
The exam was ridiculously tough. I worked really hard but I don't think it was enough. Time will tell. I learnt a lot - much more than the level down - so I need to keep that in my goldfish brain. Especially as I may have to re-sit.
I'm now trying to get a grip on my diet again. Too many carbs were creeping in - it's exhausting constantly avoiding them and they are everywhere and so, so easy. I bought a spiralizer to make courgette spaghetti as a weapon in my arsenal - and am delighted with it! It came with "instructions" so cryptic that you'd have to be of Bletchley Park standard to work out, but a pleasant annoyingly glowy and thin American lady on youtube set me straight in a jiffy. If that is what spiralizing does to you, it was worth every penny. Tonight will be courgette spaghetti with pesto, sundried tomato and cheese - delicious! And making the ribbons is an absurd amount of fun.
I also bought a keyboard for my ipad and that, dear Reader, means I can start posting regularly again. I am hoping these two purchases will make a big difference and help me shed some lardage pdq. I still feel pretty wretched about myself and I look dreadful - clothes just don't work. Although far better than the alternative for those who don't want the therapy that that would involve. And though I still have to clear out my wardrobe, even doing a little of this reveals how many actually quite nice clothes I have - and how very few of them actually fit me. I have clothes for the next three dress sizes down - I just need to move in that direction.
On which note: I sit next to a slim sugar fiend. Not only is this sickeningly annoying but also a challenge. I have to keep thinking of those clothes and how I feel now and resist the percy pigs (do they actually put crack in those things??!), fruit pastilles etc etc etc