Thursday, 11 March 2010

Don't panic!

I'm doing all the panicking around here, I've got it covered, you don't need to worry.

I am having a particularly stressful time at work at the moment and am on the edge of panic all the time. Whilst I can kind of talk myself out of misery-eating (some of the time), panic pushes all my buttons until they flash red and scream 'whoooop, whooooop'! Yesterday was great - apart from 2 large cookies. Not Bens Cookies, just regular, somewhat disappointing cookies. One of them was from the M&S bakery and tasted of soap (it was milk choc chip so no direct link that I could see) which will prevent me trying another but is still several hundred calories I really don't need. And although I'd wanted to cycle I couldn't as I had a meeting off-site first thing. As it was, it was just as well that I didn't as I was stuck in the office until 7.30pm. Today I had 3 scones with cream and jam. And am still here at almost 7pm.

The stress and panic about the absurd volume of work is now added to with stress and panic about my weight, size and what to wear to Naughty R's wedding that isn't a miserable polyester tent. Nice work, Peridot.

And this very intense period will last for all of next week AT LEAST and then I need to learn my new job and that's just stress of a different flavour.

And it's going to rain tomorrow so no cycling then either.



Ex Yo-Yo Dieter Debbie said...

Don't you wish some days that when it becomes too much that you could just hide away in bed for a few days (with Ben's cookies)? I've never sampled them, but I'm slowly gleaning from you that they are the ultimate cookies.

I don't have much to offer in the way of advice to get you through, but please know I'm thinking of you and hoping things will improve.
I'm so happy you are back to regular posts...I always enjoy your blog!


Call me Ishmael said...

That's a lot of panic for one person! What is a Ben's Cookie, anyway? Is it better than a haribo? Beth eats them too, I think (cookies I mean, not haribo). Should I import some to the US? They can't be better than McWheaties. I LOVE them.

Alice said...

Don't panic! You'll be fine, and everyone has bad days. Re: weight and size stress and finding an outfit for a wedding, what has worked in calming me down recently is remembering that every little bit of weight lost will make you look and feel better. I remember that if I even lose a quarter of what I want, that still = a looser skirt, a more comfortable bra, a smaller double chin! So don't get too caught up in the big picture, which always makes me freak out.