Tuesday, 9 November 2021

How can this be possible

 It’s our 9th wedding anniversary and I am in our bed, holding the blanket P liked to take to hospital and he is in a fridge at the funeral directors. It’s unbearable. 

8 comments:

amy said...

Sending love and strength.

Gabby said...

I’m so terribly sorry for your loss. x

Seren said...

I want to tell you that he is still with you. But that sounds like a horrible, meaningless platitude at the moment. Big hugs ❤️

Arctic Cloudberry said...

I don't know what to say, other than that I'm thinking about you and I'm so so sad for you. There are no right things to say, but then people say that that should not stop us from trying to say at least something to a grieving person, even if there is nothing that helps.

I can't imagine what it's like and how painful it is to think of your wedding day. One day hopefully you will be able to remember it with less pain. But today is too soon. It's cruel. But you are strong and you will get through this somehow, whatever getting through means. I'm not for a second suggesting it will somehow all be ok one day, but maybe there is a way to learn to live with this. For now though it's probably about getting through the day.

He loved you and you loved him and that is worth so much.

Sarah said...

It's been forever since I've dropped in on your blog. I'm shocked to have read this. I am so sorry to hear what you've been through and that P is gone. I hope you're able to look after yourself now, having looked after him for so long. Lots of hugs - I know there's nothing to be said, but I didn't want to just "walk by".

Lesley said...

Oh no. I have not blogged or read blogs for nearly a year so was blissfully unaware of what you have been going through. I'm sorrier than I can say to hear that P has died. It's just the worst thing. When it was died and self esteem I had things to say but in the face of this awfulness I'm out. All I can offer is my virtual hugs and love and prayers. All the strength in the world. Lxxxxx

Lesley said...

That "died" should read "diet" of course.

Shauna said...

I am so so sorry for your loss and all that you have been through! I randomly signed into my old blogger account today so have been jumping from blog to blog catching up with everyone. So sorry for this out-of-the-blue message but my heart is going out to you. I hope you are hanging in there and sending you so much love! xx